Ramble 2012.

I haven't posted a blog for so long, and I had so many cool ideas and projects to post about over Christmas, but then life happened and ...


I haven't posted a blog for so long, and I had so many cool ideas and projects to post about over Christmas, but then life happened and they didn't seem quite as important anymore.

My Christmas was good. Not amazing, not incredible, but good. I spent it with the people I love, and I did enjoy it, but there was something in the back of my mind the entire time, telling me that something was wrong.

Me and my boyfriend of three years and almost nine months broke up just after new year. I'll be honest, it absolutely killed me. I didn't eat for three or four days, and hardly left the house. But as time goes by, I can see more and more clearly that it needed to happen. Although I would have gone along with how things were for god knows how much longer, things really weren't right. I wasn't happy, but I had convinced myself that I was. I was going along with a university course, doing a subject that I am so passionate about, but absolutely hating every minute of it, just because in three years time it would be finished and we could get on with our lives.

I've decided to leave university, and have found an online course I plan on taking, and have also applied for jobs, along with plans to start some freelance work, and now that I have something positive to focus on I feel so much better. I don't even know why I felt the need to write this kind of post, but I really do feel like it's necessary.


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